So it’s my birthday this month and I turn 34.
Thirty four. Let’s let that sink in for a moment.
When I look at that number it feels like it has nothing to do with me. Like you know when you hear someone else is a certain age and you think oh that’s old, and then the horror sets in that you are the exact same age?
Yep. I’ve been having those moments lately.
It reminds me of that SATC episode where Miranda discusses her scary age. Mine is 38 and it’s only 4 years away. Yikes.
Despite the scariness of it all, I will still celebrate my birthday. Matthew and I are going to Rockpool restaurant for a night of steaks, cocktails and dessert. And probably more drinks to blur the reality of it all. Ha ha.
The other day it suddenly hit me how much self loathing I do.
I am forever putting myself down and only focusing on my flaws. My face is ugly. I have terrible breakouts. Why is my body so gross. God I’m so stupid. Why am I so odd? On and on they go.
It’s actually exhausting how many negative thoughts run through my head each day, each hour, each minute. Heck, each second.
It stopped me in my tracks. Why did I hate myself so much? Where did this hatred stem from? I would never treat someone else that way, so why was it ok to do it to myself?
It got me thinking of how important is to to truly love yourself, flaws and all.
Not that I want to point to myself in the mirror and be all, ‘heyyyy hot stuff’. It’s more a case of treating myself with kindness instead of automatically putting myself down.
It’s ok to love yourself and treat yourself with respect.
While this is a totally new concept for me, it’s something that I want to work towards every single day.
Something else that has been on my mind lately is how much we as consumers waste.
Someone I follow on Instagram mentioned how we are all Marie Kondo-ing our houses, only to fill it up with new purchases. It hit home because it’s so true. We are all guilty of the concept out with the old, in with the new and I admit I am guilty of this.
One way we can avoid this trap is to buy second hand. Not only is it cheaper, it also decreases our landfill and makes me personally feel a whole lot better about bringing something ‘new’ into my home. Years ago I always shopped second hand but over the past few years the lure of shiny new things took over. I am aiming to go back to shopping second hand (where I can of course), and really trying to get use out of my clothes. Watch this space!
Lastly, I have some exciting things coming up on abeautywanderer.com.au.
Expect to see some awesome product reviews, including a brand that I have loved afar for years. I also have some book reviews coming up as I’ve been reading a whole lot more lately.
Speak to you soon!